Hey Readers! I came across this song and I fell instantly head over WOahh ! for it.

CB has some really nice love songs..

And apart from the 15 too many tats he's got on his body,
  
               and the Oh So unattractive pants below the Bum, it's a decent video.

HOpe you guys enjoy it !

Here's the LInk ! 

--> Chris Brown - Should've Kissed You

=)

Neü

Readers..

Last night, I witnessed the most amazing performance of my life. And I am not exaggerating. It was my first time attending anything like this and I do not regret it One Bit. John Legend was nothing short of spectacular. From his voice, to his moves, to his outfit; Everything was unbelievable!

The day started Early.. REALLY early. I went over to Shashi's and we were on our way. The trip was a lot longer than it was supposed to be but it didn't even feel that way. Time always flies when I'm with this girl. We spent about 2 hours in a mall. Doing what? Talking Shittt and DOING SHittt Lol. We met characters in that mall.. and we made some bold moves lol. But they all gave us a good laugh.

So we left the mall

I felt calm the entire day. It only really hit me about half an hour before he performed. I kept getting chills. The anticipation was... hm !!!!!! It just crept up on me . And when they positioned that piano in the middle of the stage, my chest was on fire. *Faints*

When he finally came out I was screaming my lungs out. My throat hurt after but it was worth it ! His performance was wonderful. And I realized just how good-looking he is without all that Hair.

During one of his performances he called someone from the audience to dance with him. That woman was so lucky that day. =( .  And he gave her a rose.. Such a gentleman *Melts*

So i posted a few pics and some Videos.!!!

This week was a Roller coaster. An unbelievably LONG and Winding Roller Coaster. .

Wednesday:

Failed attempt at winning a ticket to go see a John Legend performance. I won't even go further into this. >_> because I was SOOOO upset !

Thursday:

Went to see an uncle of mine =) Haven't him in Ages ! Afterwards my mom came to get to see an autopsy being done by our pathologist. When I got into the car, she told me that the radio station was giving away tickets !! We had to call and Sing ! So HELLO !! She gave me the car directory and Flip FLip Flip! FOUnd it !
Call *busy*
Call *busy*
Call *rings*
Damn it ! The Girl won ! =( .
"Does this mean I hang up? =(" I didnt want to.. so i stayed on the line. and WHAAATT? =D *Pick Up*! i was Shaking ! My voice was shaking. Everything! They asked for my name and where I was from and all that Jive. And then I sang. It's so funny how the moment you need to remember lyrics you Can't ! I tried my best anyway. I just wish I had access to the internet at that moment! Grr. Anyways I won =) ! And I get to go see JL with one of my Besstiiiiieeeesssss <3 . Yah . We got a Date =)

Friday:

* My hair got Done. and my hair got CHopped OFF ! =( . I didn't cry.. and I'm proud of myself for that.. But it still didn't turn out the way I wanted too.. The hair cut lacks character.. and she messed up my bangs a bit.. bleh. They're too even. Doesn't look like a decent side bang anymore.. but w/e.. I'm waiting for it all to grow back =)

* I saw a LOT of my Friends =D . Which absolutely made my dayyyyy

* At the end of the night I hopped on a bus to go see a friend.. Got to the house and The WORST thing that cud've have happened to me at that moment DID. :| . I searched through my bag for my iPod Touch and . ='( My baby was Gone. ='( !!!! Tracked down the driver but it wasn't there.. some idiot had taken it already. wow. I hate people like that... I hope he NEVER gets to use it because it has a Password on there! Bastard. =( . No more Tweeting on the go.. No more Fb.. no Skype.. no Msn.. no Angry Birds. no more Free texting to all my friends =( . Nothing. sigh*
The thing even had my name on it =( . ..


So that was the ending to my day...

And my week.

That last bit overshadowed all the things that made me happy over the past few days.. Just when I was starting to look on the brighter side of things... This happens to me.. =(

Slowly.. I'm falling into a depression..

Some thing seems to go wrong with every passing moment

Frankly, I don't want to deal with any of them..

But I have to..

Technology is against me, I nearly lost ALL my music. Thanks to a friend of mine I managed to recover them but I'm trying to get things back to exactly the way it was and it's taking so much effort.. I've been at it for over a day now and I'm not near the end yet..

My weight has become too much. Seriously. I have to work my butt off. AGaIn.
Why THe HEck Do ppl Find it NEcessary that the FIRST thing they say when they see me is that I've gained weight???

 Back the HELL OFF !! OBVIOUSLY i KNOw ThAT. It's My FREAKING BODY ! I DON'T NeEd YOU to POINT IT OUT TO ME.

 saodjf;lasdfjkf;asljkfl;asjkf !!

I won't even waste my time CURSING them OUT Here.

UGH ! UPsetting !.!

sigh*

Now that I'm home, I'm realizing how damaging the weather in Halifax was to my Hair.. What was once long and thick has now become thin and rapidly directed its way into a ridiculous deplorable state..

Just one day ago, a friend walked out of my life.. and it really hit me Hard.. I'm literally sulking over it..

And My Relationship? sigh*. Regardless of the fact that we're a 5 minute drive away from each other.. our connection.. Feels..  nearly non-existent.

I spent the last two day just lying in my room because I don't feel like doing anything else.. I don't want to see anyone.. I definitely don't want anyone to see me..

Unless I'm able to hide EveRyThing.. and there's a lot to hide..

I'm not happy.. And things are just going to get worse.. before even a slight ray of sunshine makes it way in..

Readers!! I am BAck HOME ! =D !!

Finally I'm out of that WrEtched Place! .. Alright.. Truth be told, it isn't that bad... Halifax is a nice place.. It's quiet, and there's a tree in every direction. i Love Nature <3 . Not too much of it though lol. It's somewhat of a fake city.. Like they've dumped some urban buildings into a rural area.. Which I like. You get a good bit of both worlds. Definitely not the best. The thing that ruins the city the most is the weather!! It's cold for 3/4 of the year! How ridiculous is THat??! sigh*. But as happy as I was to be leaving that place, I was upset that I had to leave so many people behind..


My journey was really different this time.. Guess I ended my freshman year the same way I started it - on a taxi, this time from SMU to the airport. It was smooth sailing from then. Landed in JFK on time and made my way to the house. The next day I took an 8 hour bus ride to Pittsburgh.. one of the W[o]rst experiences of my LIFE !






Everything bad that could have gone wrong, did. I got to the station, and one of the workers told me that I needed my ticket printed. So off I went in the direction he sent me. Stood on a line for quite some time. The worker there was so rude!! 20 minutes later when she finally made herself available to everyone, she tells me that I'm at the wrong place. So i had to walk up more floors and make my way to the other end of the station. Another line. Get to the front and.. guess what? Wrong place again ! So I head over to a third place. Line? DUH ! Meanwhile my time is running out ! Because the bus is going to leave SOON ! Get to the front and then.. sigh* worst news of ALL. . I'm at the wrong station.. and my bus had left 20 minutes before.. =( . Apparently I'd been looking at my return time. So.. Panic? Disappointment? Frustration? Sadness? Yes.. Everything. I just found somewhere and Cried.. I couldn't help it. . I ended up buying another ticket.. which cost 3 times as much as it did from the other company. Goodbye new pair of shoes.. A few minutes after the bus left, I really examined my ticket... I was scheduled to get to Pittsburgh in 13 hours :| . The woman who sold it to me didn't even find it necessary to point that out ! Or the fact that I needed to switch buses at the next stop.! So ridiculous ! Things kept on getting worse, and better, and worse; From catching the earlier bus at the next station, to the vending machine stealing my cash, and the second bus having No wifi =( . But I made it in one piece.. One drained and disappointed piece.

Things got better the following days. Spent it with my brother. He took me around.. and we did some shopping. I enjoyed Pittsburgh more than NY. It's almost like Halifax but with American stores and American prices!! =D ! How HAPPYYY was I ! Until my money ran out lol. =(. Sad. . I stayed there for a week and then headed back on a bus to NY.

I explored Brooklyn on my own the following day; and by Brooklyn I mean a few blocks. Had to lock up the house myself and all =). Yes, that's an achievement! Got myself some food, and did some window shopping. I made my way to Staples! *shivers* . iLove Stationery. Absolutely love it. If I could've bought more I would.

The people of Brooklyn are.. different.. The way the look, the way the dress.. You could just tell that I didn't belong there.. Even though I just had on a vest, jeans and flip flops that day. People kept staring.. discomfort? yes. A lot of it.

I had to wake up at 5 the next morning to head over to the airport. My carry on was unbelievably heavy due to the HUGE text books in there. I didn't want to risk my luggage being overweight and being charged and extra $50 !!! ugh. So I packed them in there. I had the wrong gate on my ticket.. Don't ask me why ! So I would have probably missed my flight had I not noticed that screen with the departure gates and destinations. I would've ended up in Puerto Rico. Thank you Check in GUY ! >_> . Nearly sent me to the WRONG country.

Even finding food in that terminal was a hassle. There were more restaurant type food outlets in there than the usual Stop and Go. Spent about 20 minutes walking around trying to find something to eat. Meanwhile I was Starving ! and the weight of my backpack was unbearable. My back felt like it was on fire. When I finally got something and made my way to the RIGHT gate, I just sat there. And for a moment I didn't Move. .

I didn't get a window seat.. I was 'middled'. But luckily the passengers on either side of me were really nice. Slept a lot of the way, and played Angry Birds. The guy to my right introduced me to something called 'Popcorners'. It's pop corn in the shape of chips! And they taste Exactly like popcorn ! I'd love to make the switch ! No more kernels stuck in my teeth -_-''. Such an annoying feeling. So if you guys ever see it in a store somewhere, pick it up! It's worth it.




It was raining like crazy the first two days.. but the sun decided to come out today. I'm happy about that. Spend the day with my friends at the beach. Just like old times. Some were still missing though.. And I can't wait until I get to see them again.. <3.  Till then, they'll always be there in Spirit. =)

This Summer won't be all fun and games though. I start work soon. Grr! All a part of growing up I suppose..

To a Neü Summer!

and III AMmMmm DONE !!

As of noon today, or whatever time I left the exam room, my first year at university is OVER!

HapPy? Yes

Sad? That too..

=( Freshman year has gone by so quickly it's unbelievable.. I still remember when I first walked through the doors of the Gorsebrook entrance... =( . Now I'll be leaving through those same doors.. All the 'Hi's' have now turned to 'Goodbyes' as all my friends depart and head for home.. Some of whom are never going to come back... But that's life i suppose.. I'll miss all of them.

I've made some amazing friendships, and I see certain individuals remaining in my life.. and being a big part of it too =) . Saying goodbye to them was one of the hardest things... A part of me wants the summer to go bye super quick JUST so i can see them again lol. Crazy? YEAH ! Summer's going to be AmaZing and it better last long !! Lol. 

I can finally say goodbye to Calculus ! I'll miss it.. =( Seriously.. it's not as bad as you think. Just need practice.. which I didnt do much of. Bleh. GO Figure. And Ecology. *sigh* No more memorizing a million Phyla and Classes and Orders and SubPhyla and all the LonG and ComPLicated NamEs!

Hali gave me more DOWNS than UPS and i am PISSED at it ! Particularly my HaIR =(. I'll be saying bye to a lot of it soon.. Already said bye to so much of it in Halifax... Involuntarily... The weather up there is ridiculous.. But I've learnt from my mistakes.. and next year will be better.. 

I have 4 labs a week ahead of me. As well as RA duty and the possibility of being a Student Assistant during Chem Labs. I got my hands Full next year. REALLY full. Let's see how I prioritize.. Let's see if I make it out alive lol.

My plans for the Summer? School, work, Exercise, and of course.. 

FUN.!

Got my BIkiniii Readyy !. Won't be worn until the body comes along though. And until I find myself on a beach back home.! Can't Wait !

To Summer !

Here ye, Here ye!

The time has come for every SMUdent to Hit the BOoks ! And for Some, increase their intake of caffeine ! As much as I disapprove of that action, I succumbed to it at one point.. or two.. or three =( . I am not proud, no.. Especially after taking this psych course and seeing what effects it has on my mom, AND one of my friends [GIANT Coffee Addict]. So I've found someone who hates it just as much as I do (or did), and they're determined to keep me from giving in to it Again.

So back to the point of this thing. Finals have come again ! And as of the moment I leave the exam room on the 16th of April, I will be saying Goodbye to my Freshman Year ='( . ! *Tears*

I wish I could say that it was Great. ! That it was fulfilling.. but it wasn't. To be honest though, it had it's ups, but I guess nothing can be perfect right? . As always I didn't do nearly as well as I wanted to, and some persons found their way into my life.. persons who at this moment I wish hadn't.. But that can't be helped now.

I am glad though that I got to experience something Neü. A new place, new people, gaining independence, maturity, responsibility, and scoring a JOb!. Putting all the drama aside, I guess my freshman year turned out to be exactly what it was meant to be. A learning experience.

I can't write much right now cuz I'm near exhausted and I'm just about to tackle Chem. at 1:19 in the morning.. And the bed is RIGHT there. I just want to crawl into it. ! .
Studying alone has its drawbacks sometimes.. Hence the reason I should sleep at night and work during the day, instead of sleeping at 3 in the morning and waking at 10 [And might I add feeling guilty about sleeping for so long =( ..sigh* ]

Anyway.

Just wanted to keep you guys up to date with things.

Gnight !

Neü.