Christmas eve started out really positive for me. I got a visit from T and everything =].. which quickly turned a bit... sour. I got upset because I basically had 2% of his attention. He played video games the entire time and I really wasn't happy about that. I got even more upset when he told me that he was leaving soon. I ended up just heading into my room and not really speaking to him. He still came to get me after a while, but only to say that he was leaving. Imagine my enthusiasm.. He did ask me to walk him out, so I did. Even though I was angry, I took his hand and held it. Truth is I don't like being upset with him, no matter what the reason is. After a while, it just doesn't seem worth it. I'm only here for a short time.
It begun to rain and he dashed off. . . Did he really think I was gonna let him walk all the way to the highway and wait for a bus? Hmph. I got my dad and we drove after him. But he'd already disappeared! He's a little ninja.. No exaggeration lol. But I spotted him. I'm a little samurai myself =]. Then off to his house we went.
Later on that night I was supposed to go to a party and meet up with all my friends. At the last minute, so many of them couldn't make it ! Imagine how upset I was =[. I really just wanted to stay home after that.. But then I went to the kitchen and the ham was cooked! Lol. :$ I took a slice and well, I was content lol. I got ready and by midnight I was on my way!
The party was worth the trouble =]. I got to see a lot of people, and the friends that made it, got me smiling. I Love my Friends.
The party ended so abruptly ! [At 2pm]. It was hilarious lol. Shameful, but hilarious. Those two hours were amazing. T finally showed up just as everything had ended. He's got some timing! I didn't mind though. Was glad that I got to see him on Christmas morning.. But then, he took a the wrong way and my night went downhill from there. I told someone off and I don't regret it at all.
Some people just don't deserve the hearts of others. Unfortunate but true. They take too many people for granted. Especially those that truly love them.
I slept through most of December 25th, waking up at 3 in the afternoon. Breakfast at 4. Spoke to T for a while, trying to make things better.. sigh* some people make everything so difficult. . I wish I could save him.
But we're on speaking terms now =]. He's content, I'm content, but someone's still upset with me. Haven't run into THAT person for the day yet. hm... I wonder what it'll be like. We'll see .!
What's really strange about this Christmas is that I barely listened to any carols. I sang so many while putting up the tree but after that, nothing really happened.. There were no presents - none wrapped under the tree anyway. I didn't really do any shopping. The 25th just sprung itself upon me. But I guess I can try to change that next year right?
I hope this isn't what a Neü Christmas is like.
We Love you.
