There goes my SMile! =[

I was so hyped up about finally being home again. I really didn't want to spend too much time in the house doing nothing, but at the moment, that's all I want to do.. In the past 3 months, I've gained so much weight; it's ridiculous.

This is what I see.
The only difference is I'm not
thin like the actual girl
in this image.

It's gotten to the point where I don't even want to look in the mirror because all I see is FAT. I had lost so much weight before I headed out and all of that hard work just went down the drain. All I have to do is get up and workout but I'm too depressed to even do that. I just want to stay locked up in my room and not be seen.. but I guess that won't get me anywhere...

As soon as my brother's done with the living room I'm going to put on my favourite workout video and SwEat. Sweating is so easy to do in this place.

Working out in Canada isn't much fun at all. The air is so cold even inside the gym. I'd be exercising and the cold air would feel like it's piercing my lungs. Not to mention I barely sweat. All that running and I'm barely getting rid of any water weight. So I'm going to try to get myself on the right track before I head back up there (I actually wrote 'home' the first time :S). It's going to be a lot colder when I get back and my body will want to cling to the fat so I'd stay warm.

Things don't look too bright right now.. Let's hope they change..