My eyes tear up whenever I think about it and I have no idea whether or not I'll be able to handle this.
He's been through this before with one of his previous.. so he at least knows what he's in for...
He doesn't seem too excited about it.. Honestly, he isn't excited about it at ALL.. :| . But who would?..
Due to certain things that have happened in his past relationships, he's now putting the option of an Open Relationship on the table... Yipee.. -_-'' . I'm not too thrilled about that, but I do understand where he's coming from.. When he brought it up though, it made me feel like he didn't trust me, so that hurt.. But I suppose it's a way of protecting himself from getting hurt as well. So that's what's happening now! Frankly it doesn't change the way I feel about him or any other guy for that matter.
He's still my one and only and I'm still off limit to everyone else =P .
... But we've been through this So many times. I've even opted to asking other people about their LDR's.. so far, they're all terrible ! :| . It's a bit funny to tell you the truth.. Not ''haha'' funny, but more like a ''oh my goodness I don't believe this is happening'' type of funny.. I've been told that you have to put a lot of work into it.. Anyone else is free to put in their 2 cents..With studies, and the new environment, and everything else that will be happening, I have no clue what life will be like.. I know for sure that I'll have to prioritize things, and have some sort of schedule.. I've never had a Schedule in my LIFE so this will be a bit irritating.. I brought up the idea of having video calls at night. Even if they're short, of even if we won't be speaking to each other because one or both of us might be busy working since we'll both be enrolled in a school at that point.. but he refuses to talk about any of it.. He's pessimistic about All of it. =[. He doesn't want to make any promises of what we'll be doing because he's doesn't believe that it will turn out that way.. It's making me LESS excited to go away.. Everything's harder now because of what he'd gone through in the past.
Kudos to those before me ! You just made my life Harder. Sigh*
Cant wait to Buss My A+S to the power of 2 ! I lost that craving to always come out on top 2 years ago.. Worse 2 years of my life I must say..
So I'm putting those Neroy Glasses back On. It's about time I resume that craving to be my Absolute Best.
Even with all of that, I'll still try my best to make time to those who need it and to those who mean the most to me.. =]
