To say that I've been neglecting my baby is far more than just an understatement.. Have I been that busy? Hm. Not really.. at least not since school has ended. My vacation isn't cracking up to be all I expected t be but nonetheless it's still a nice break from the cold and gloomy weather of the Fax.. I finally got to dip my head into the glistening ocean after visiting it THREE times. Rawr.

I got to hang out with my friends. It's one adventure after another, be it one we wanted or not... The surprises keep coming.. and coming..

So.. Update?? All but one of my grades are out.. so far it's more than I expected to tell you the truth. This semester was BRUTAL. Three jobs and 5 courses? Overkill. Complete Overkill. Not to mention a long distance relationship.. sigh* It's work. School still takes full priority, regardless.. and it always will.

My hair situation?? MUCH better than the last time i showed up here.. but still. ECk. It goes back to dry and dull two days after I've gotten it down. But it's still soft as cotton. Which makes me all the more upset ! It just points into whatever direction it finds itself into. This dehydration is killing me... Still I'll try. The amount of growth in this thing right now is woah. I'm waiting till the weekend of my leave for the ice-land to get rid of all the waves, curls and kinks...

I'm staring out the window while I type, all i see is grey... the water is coming in through the windows but I'm in no mood to go close them... Buddy's right there on the chair, fast asleep. So I've taken his laptop hostage.. Iiii Rrr Hungry !

I'll just be saying random bits of whatever ... My thoughts are far too disorganized..

This year was the first time we hadn't put up a tree.. . I'm still a present fanatic though, so I got something for everyone. I like seeing them Smile =)

Anything else to talk about? :/ ...

The one party of the season I was looking forward to turned out to not be as much fun as I expected.. All my friends couldn't make it... He didn't show up either... so I really didn't have a ball... Left early. I have about 1 1/2 weeks left in this vacation and I don't really see it getting much better... Unless you could that surprise I'm expecting on New Years =D !..

But I mean, I don't see myself going anywhere special.. As much as I want to, I don't think it'll happen unless I really do go myself. But that's not much fun, now is it? sigh* .

Has life just become a giant Bore?? I've lost all motivation to do anything ! I came down with my text books to be ahead and I've probably read what? 5 pages? hm. I didn't even bring Michelangelo with me. PERFECT time to read.  .

No use fussing over it now.

I do hope that everyone's having a fantastic vacation !

I wont be seeing this island again for many another 12 months =( Depression? Yes. sigh* ..... But we gotta do what we gotta do right? ...

That's all for now..

Neu.

Today my tears streamed down my face..
I haven't cried that way in so long..
How can you see me in pain and do nothing about it?
Knowing that I hadn't done you wrong..?

When I ask to leave, I'm just hoping you'd want me to stay..
To let me know everything will be ok..
But all you do, is just let me go...

I always say that I Love You..
I always let you know how i feel
I let the WOrld know how I feel about you..
Why can't you do the same for me?

Why do I always get shut down?
Why do I feel like I'm not good enough?
Why do they get so much of you?
Why do I feel like you want so little of me..

I miss the days when i felt longed for..
The days you'd hold on so tightly..
The days where we were all that mattered in a moment..
The days when you made me feel.. Neü.

I thought of you today...
And I had to fight so hard so that I would not break down...
Why do you cross my mind so often?
Why do I dream of you at night?
Why do I relate everything I do to something we've done?
Every time I see a guy, I compare him to you...
The way he looks, the way he walks, the way his fingers never appear quite the way yours do...
I miss your voice, and even your hair...
The way we'd just lay next to each other and gaze..
No friendship is like the one we've had...
No one speaks to me the way you do...
No one makes me laugh the way you do..
No one makes me mad the way you do.. .   .
No one makes me get over it as fast as you do...
I miss the fights we never had..
And the arguments that never came up..
The way you'd spend everyday with me, and let me know that it's the only thing you ever looked forward to...
I miss being your reason,
I miss making you smile..
I miss being help by you..
But I'll never miss you being the reason I cry..
Because even now that we're a thousand miles apart, I still shed tears for you..
I still shudder at the thought that I may lose you..
A part of me just wants... us..

Neü..

      Steve Jobs has made me so happy over the past years. And I'm not being ridiculous.. Music plays such a giant role in my life it's unbelievable.. I really have no idea what I would have done without my iPod.. It's gotten me through so much.. and you might say that it does the same job as any other mp3 player out there but it really doesn't. Not to me.. The interface, the size, the feel, Everything. I thank Timmy so much for introducing me to iTunes. I haven't stopped using it since he told me about it. Even following you on Twitter was a blast. I do HOPE it was you. Your tweets made me laugh my butt off...

      Back when I was a little kid, our first pc was an Apple. I remember all the games we had on there. Even their  card game was different. Solitaire was foreign to me then... And then I got my MacBook Pro.. [Michaelangelo]. One of the best things that I've ever owned.. So many  people say that Apple is worth nothing more than the name, but I adore all the products I've used. Everything's more fun, and the speed is amazing. Even the way the Apple logo glows through the screen from the other side.. Pure Brilliance that man. And my iBaby...... I'm even more upset now that I lost you.. I took you Everywhere. We did Everything together... You did so much for me.. You'd swear I was writing about some Guy. Heh. No. This is my Lover. . My iLover..

     So here I say Thank You Steve. You've done a lot for me, and a lot for the rest of the world. You've revolutionized every bit of technology that you've gotten your hands on. I can honestly say, that you will be missed, and all your hard work is greatly appreciated.


Love,
Neü

Seeing that picture of you reminds me of someone that I miss so madly... It's exactly the type of thing he'd like.. The outfit, the pose, the contrast. Everything. .. ....

We'll Miss You.

One of the most beautiful places I've ever seen...

this summer was my first time camping. We stayed in cabins with about 7 other people, woke up at 6:30 almost every day and went to bed at 1 ! Those mornings were cold !!!! But the Food, was Amazing. We had an awesome Chef.

The days at Mush-A-Mush were long. We learnt so much, and did so many team building activities. It was all about training, and we absolutely LOVED it when we had breaks. I made new friends, made new bonds, and I can pretty much say that the RA's of '11-'12 are like a family now.

I was so homesick though... For the first 3 days I was disconnected from the outside world... then I got to learn that the camp had Wi-Fi !! :|  Then I just went crazy Lol. Twitter, Facebook, Pinger. Everything. But it was so nice being away from all the technology..

Mush-A-Mush had a lake and a beautiful scenery... I never got a chance to go kayaking but we did had one of our sessions in the lake. That 10 minute bath was COLD ! LOl

On the last day of camp all the returning RA's had to prepare situations that we might have to handle when get back to school. I got a gambler, a girl with hygiene issues, some guy on a ridiculous amount of steroids and drugs.! and yh.. he killed me LOL. I learnt from that ! It was good practice.. and it's funny how you think you'll handle a situation but when you're actually presented with it you freeze up a bit.

But all in all it was Great =) . I would LOVE to do it again.


 Here are photos from near my cabin:

Imagine walking through this at night. We needed a flashlight. Had to be one of the creepiest things i've ever done.

Hey guys,

Sorry I've been gone for so long... I haven't updated this thing since I've left home.. There's so much going on. My life has become Ridiculously HECTIC this year. So many labs, so much work... PLUS RA duty. This year is nothing but demanding, and I need to give it almost every single thing I have... And this is only the beginning right? Harrrrrr. I've gotten better at managing my time though... Getting things done before the deadline. Let's see if I can get them done WAYYY before due date.

But all in all, everything's going ok. When I get more of an opening, I'll tell you guys all about RA camp at Camp Mush-A-Mush, and how my first month back has been going.

Take care !
Neü..

People who have the attitude of a bitter 60 yr old woman who lived her entire life with just her moody cats.


People who think they're too Old to be called a Kid. And they haven't even hit 16 yet. Get over yourself


Males who INSIST they're Men But have NO responsibility and can't even take care of themselves


People who can't wait for summer to be over so they can be back at school


Girls who wear a mask and call it make-up


People who play games all day instead of studying and complain about bad grades


People who think it's dumb to like things you post. --> So WHat? The options there. Why not tell Zuckerberg it's Dumb? hmph. And i'll Hi-5 myself if i want to, Damn it 


People who shave off their eyebrows and draw on new ones


GIrls who Plaster gel on the side of their face.


People who don't carry their weight in group assignments.


People who INSIST that you say GoodMOrning or GoodAfternoon and they themselves say it to everyone with NO Emotion


People who respond to Long Bloody messages with 'K'


People who say they don't like a song when you introduce them to it, then 3 months later when it's on the radio they love it


When someone says "No Homo"


People who accept requests from ppl they dont know then complain they have too many contacts


When ppl from up north find it too much of a hassle to come down here to see us, but think it's a walk in the park for us to go all the way up there to see them. 


When Someone does something STupid to Tick you off and later come speaking to you like nothing ever happened, asking you why you're mad -_-' !!!!. APOLOGIZE Damn it !


People who ask to borrow your phone and go through your messages


People who don't put their blackberry's on silent, and INSIST on carrying on a million conversations on that thing.


People who don't use headphones on public transportation

People who fart in the elevator.

People who steal

People who walk RIDICULOUSLY Slow in the hallway. in PAIRS.

People who tag themselves in their profile picture

Idiots who pull the fire alarm at 3 in the morning

Idiots who pull the fire alarm PEriod

Roger's Ringback.

Waiting 5 hours at the hospital in Halifax to see a Dr. When there are only TWO people in the waiting room

An international student's Medical Bill after visiting that hospital 

When it changes from Snow to Rain in 3 hours. -_-' Halifax 

People who Stand in the middle of an isle.


Scoliosis


Myopia


Smoking


Men who pee on the side of the road


When hairdressers INSIST that what you're explaining is NOT what you really mean.


Being annoyed


Allergies


NSAIDS


Having short hair


Being hungry

Skinny girls who complain they're Fat.

People who misspell Loss, Lose, and Loose.

People who failed Basic Math for Cxc.

Girls who speak RIdiculously Loud.

People who don't put their Blackberry on silent and carry out a million conversations on it

Waiting for videos to load

That person at the cinema who refuses to Shut up

When guys take pictures of themselves flaunting cash

I only have one week left in this paradise... and I'm more than just a bit disappointed...

There were so many things I wanted to do... Most of the time I'm stuck at either my home or his just watching television. Just once I'd wish he'd just say "Babe, I'm taking you to Wherever, Whenever, Go Get ready." Like that would ever happen... Every time I make plans with him to go out somewhere, he bails. I've been wanting to go to lunch at this restaurant near by. Every single time I ask him he comes up with some reason to not go - "I don't feel like it." "Another day." "Tomorrow." They all tick me off. Finally we set a date. I got all dressed up and went to town to wait for him. He had to go visit family the plan was to call me when he was leaving so we could meet there. It was about 2:30 and he still hadn't called, so I decided to. And Guess what, he was asleep. Then he said he was in a bad mood, he didn't want to go anymore.

Well THANK YOU Sir, for making me wait for you in town for 3 hours! You didn't even have the decency to call and cancel! And his reasons are SO ridiculous sometimes. If the people around you are pissing you off then wouldn't it make more sense to leave your damn house??? UGH !! You're such a PAIN sometimes I swear !

As for that waterfall you promised to take me to, we have Yet to go there and i doubt we ever will.

Oh! And he keeps reminding me that he's got all this work to do to prepare for school, which starts on Monday btw.. Know what that means? I probably won't be seeing him at all for the entire week. Why? He's going to complain about being tired and blahhh blahhh blahhh. So I might as well just cut him out of the rest of my vacation and make plans with everyone else since they're more than likely to happen.

I'm still upset that he only took me to the beach twice. And even then I literally had to BEG him, and we finally got to go after a rescheduling a million times. UGH.!

I'm frustrated.. Really, I am.. sigh*

Neü

So I'm out of work. Had my last day on the 5th, but I volunteered to work on the 12th because one of the workers needed to take a day off. I missed being there. Two of the other workers were on vacation as well.  So with all the Loud people gone, it was nice and quiet. Spent a lot of time talking to Ernie. He's pretty fun now. I'm gonna miss him.

Now I'm stuck at home, and it's kinda boring being here by myself. Well I'm by myself in my room anyway. I don't particularly like leaving it. But I'm gaining weight just lying in here. I only leave to eat and use the bathroom :/ . I've decided to make the effort to Sit Down instead of laying down lol. ohhh boiii.

Anyway,

Shashi and Zior got a job =) . But they both started the week AFTER i got off mine. *Pouts* So did another friend of mine. Rawr. So Darling's still pretty much the only one i see on a regular basis. He rarely comes here though, and I don't like being cooked up in this place alone. He's supposed to come over today but it's pouring like crazy. He always comes late anyway. Guess this just means that he'll be here late-R.

I've been making a list of things that I want to do and places I want to visit before I leave here.

- Go to the beach again. Many more times. lol
- Visit waterfalls
- Climb the Pitons and go to the Piton Falls

- Go to dinner with the Love. And get all dressed up too
- Go to the Beacon with Shashi. It's a restaurant of a past teacher of ours.

- Go to the Rain Forest

- Get a day pass to a hotel

But MOST of all,

- Spend time with my Mommy  =)

Hello Readers!!!

Remember that Scholarship I applied for about two months a back? I got an e-mail from them asking me for my number because they wanted to ask me some questions regarding it... So I'm thinking ''Ohh my GOSH !! Does that mean I'm in the running? =D " ! So I responded, and they still hadn't called me the next day... =( . I went through my sent messages and -_-'' I gave them His number instead..... :$ I call him way too many times, that's why. I'm in a state of Panic right about now :| . For one we were already in a bit of a squabble. I called him anyway and turns out he missed BOth their calls. Doesn't anyone walk around with their call phone anymore???

So I called them, and told them what I'd done.. :$ She laughed. And then she told me that I'd gotten the scholarshiiiiiiip ! =D ! EXCITEMENT !!!!! I was literally moving about in my seat lol. Trying hard to compose myself but it was a bit of a fail.

So there you have it! Yours truly is the

2011 awardee 

for the 

Emera Scholarship For St. Lucia Residents 

And I'm very happy about that. Granted that it only covers 25% of my yearly tuition, it's still a big help. I have to work my butt off to keep it and to get more as well. SMU hasn't gotten back to me about those I'd apply for. I believe the schedule date is in October. So when the time comes, I'll let you guys know how things turned out!

They sent me an e-mail afterwards asking for a graduation photo to put onto their website. I barely had any decent ones to give them :/. I didn't really take any portraits, and I have NOne with me holding my awards. The only one a photographer took with me collecting it is no where to be found.. And it was a good one too. I got the Most Academic Student Award 2008. Proud. And the Prime Minister was the one who handed it to me. I was pretty upset right before they had called my name. I'd only gotten an award for Math when we went up for our certificates, and I wasn't happy about it. I refused to speak to anyone.. So that put a smile on my face. The most memorable thing about that photo were my shoes lol. Skechers. I didn't own heels then. Didn't bother shop for it either. But I didn't mind at all ! It was a rainy day and it would be a hassle getting around in those things. I don't like the idea of my feet being wet either...

So I made it onto the internet! yay ! =). I've always wanted that :$ lol . I assume I'll be informed when the article comes out. 

It goes to show that if you're set on getting something, and you do all you can, even when things seem Dim, you can get what you work for.

That's it for now.

Neü.

Here's an insight to what it's like living on campus at SMU


SMU's made me Love

-Fruit Salad. Especially when they have the granola clusters to add to it.

-Cheerios! i HATED those before :|

-Chocolate Milk. Yummm

-That Mysterious Cereal with the different flakes... I have No idea what it is but it tastes Woahhhh

-Poutine !! This is basically french fries with gravy and cheese. Tastes good with chicken in there. Sounds a bit gross, but it tastes wonderful ! :$ Guilty pleasure. It makes you Fat ! LOL :| NO lie. Do NOT eat this at night. Lesson Learnt.




-Donair sauce. I still wonder what it's made of but it tastes good with garlic slice.






-Sweet Potato Fries. <3






-Courteous Males. AND Females. =). I assure you, chivalry is Alive in Halifax. Guys will go out of their way to hold the door open for you, THat's for sure. <3 . It's something I can't help but appreciate. Especially since when I get back home it's nonexistent . (N)

I would put snow on that list but you love it as much as you hate it. It's nice to look at, fun to play in, you Hope for a blizzard so that you can have a snow day, but those moments when you actually want to go outside, it becomes a pain. Not to mention one of my favourite boots got ruined. But I think that has more to do with Halifax's indecisive weather. I went out one night and it was Snowing. A few hours later it was Pouring rain ! And I don't mean any ordinary rainfall. The streets were beginning to Flood :| . sigh*. Don't buy suede ...


SMU's made me Hate

-Fire Alarms. And the idiots who pull them ! Waking up at 3 am to walk down 15 flights of stairs and walk back up again is NOT fun ! Especially when you have an exam at 9 at morning ! It doesn't even make sense waiting for the elevator because it'll take you about 10 times as long to get to your room.

-Immature freshman. To tell you the truth, most of those students who do the most ridiculous things are the Canadians. And I'm not speaking about the Hilariously ridiculous. Just the plain old WHy the HECk would you do That/?!! *ANNOYED* !!!!!! -_-'' .

-Smokers. I can't stand them even more now ! They decide to smoke where everyone NEEDS to pass so you always get hit RIght in the face with that Gust of Death. UCk ! Absolutely wretched !. Someone needs to Slap them and put them all in a Hole.

-Partiers. It's fine to go out every now and then, but to do it every weekend? The worst part is science kids have school on Friday, unless the rest of the student body. So while we still have to be finishing up labs and preparing for recitation, you hear people galloping up and down the halls Screaming.

-Living in the same suite with Boys. Now some of them are ok, but others are anything BUT hygienic. Especially those I Lived with last year. UGH ! Disgusting ! Which is why a bunch of my female friends got together and requested an all-female suite. I suggest other people do the same.. But since 2 of us landed the position of an RA that plan didn't carry through.

-People who INSIST on walking slowly. Know those moments when you need to get somewhere and those 3 girls decided to take up the entire width of the hallway and stroll so they can have their Chat? It takes all you have to not Smack the gossip out of them. Be considerate and stick to ONE side of the hallway PLEASE ! Hm !

But words of Advice, TRY your best to leave for class early. ie earlier than 15 minutes before class starts, and before it ends as well. The elevators move at snail pace, stopping at every floor. You might as well take the stairs..

Speaking of which... going to this school really does make you lazy. We rely on the elevator way more than we should. Back home we did so much walking to get from point A to point B. Even walking from the hangout spot to the caf, and then to class was a lot, but we did it anyway. And walking all through town to get a bus. I need to forget about the whole elevator business. Except those times when I'm in a rush.

I think that's all for now. If there's anything else I think of I'll add it on here later.

Neü !

And I Miss Us...

June 10th: Deadline for submission of RA contracts

                 Deadline for submission of Emera scholarship

Completed and sent in my RA contract by the 9th. =) ! Still don't know why I waited so long.. We needed an SIN number, and I need to get myself a Canadian bank account. Even though I'm with scotia, the currency would be different. So I need to get that done when I get back to Halifax, either before RA camp, which means less time on my island, or get it After RA camp, which means that I might miss the deadline and get paid the next time around.. Which.. i guess isn't bad at all .. There's a day in between camp and the deadline so I'll hustle !

As for this scholarship... 

1. We needed an Essay.. and I really began working on it the night before.. I had a draft already so it wasn't so bad.

2. Reference letters. . I remembered this the day before the deadline ! :| . So you can imagine me explaining this to my intended referees ! lol. But they got it done in time, and I'm glad =)

3. Resumé . I updated mine ! =) Added my new JOBBBBB in therrrreeeeeee =) . I liked seeing a real job on my resumé . I felt proud *SuperHeroPose* . Now it's just a tad longer.

4. Transcript - THAT was a TASK! :| I spent about an hour and a half in that office waiting to see the principal. THEn she tells me that I need to speak to the bursary. Who then sent me to the secretary, which was in front of me the entire time! Except now of course! So I had to wait till she came back. Then What? They tell me it takes 2 to 3 business days :| . WHAAAAAT???!!!! sigh* At this point I'm ready to CRY. And I'm just standing there because I don't know what to do.. 

She just asked ''Why does everyone wait until the last minute to request this?"

And I just stood there . =( . 

Then she said, "I'll do it now"

:| . what???? Here I was thinking that they had to go through some long process of getting information from somewhere else, and getting permission from this person and all sorts of stuff.. Nope. She just needed to fill some things out, and that was it. Three pages. Took about 25 minutes to do. WOW. Anyway, I'm grateful. ! VERY! 

I got everything done by the deadline =). And IN went my app.

Let's hope that I FINALLY get a scholarship... Getting this would be so amazing! sigh*

I'm praying !

Neü

This summer really isn't like any of the previous ones.. 

I don't get to wake up whenever I want to, or sleep as late as I want to because I'll be too tired at work! Grr! It's a bit annoying sometimes.. I feel like I'm being robbed of my summer =( . But you gotta do what you gotta do right?

I got a job at a lab, with people I know so it really is a bit fun. My coworkers ALwaYs have something going on so you're never really bored - except for those moments where I've done all there is to do and I'm left idle for wayyy too long. But nonetheless it's a pretty okay job. I get to learn a lot about the tests, and machines, and how everything operates, and there are books in there that I SHOULD be reading but ms procrastination is preventing me :/ . 

There's also a pathologist who comes down about once a month or so, and I get to watch him cut everything up and analyze them. Great way to learn because I'm seeing everything right in front of me. Even though pathology isn't my field, it's still knowledge.

I'm still trying to make this summer FuN. I'm going to every event that I deem FuN, and so far MOST of them have been that way. No complaints.

I've also joined the Gym!. Though I ditched the last class... I really had nothing to wear :/. but it's not as bad as it sounds ! I still work out at home like I did last summer, so I'm not cheating myself of anything much.. but I better step up my game!

 I've been given and opportunity to do something that I've wanted to for SO long and I have a month to get ready ! So I'm hoping everything turns out the way I NEED them Too ! WIsh me Luck !

Love Always,

Neü =)

Hey Readers! I came across this song and I fell instantly head over WOahh ! for it.

CB has some really nice love songs..

And apart from the 15 too many tats he's got on his body,
  
               and the Oh So unattractive pants below the Bum, it's a decent video.

HOpe you guys enjoy it !

Here's the LInk ! 

--> Chris Brown - Should've Kissed You

=)

Neü

Readers..

Last night, I witnessed the most amazing performance of my life. And I am not exaggerating. It was my first time attending anything like this and I do not regret it One Bit. John Legend was nothing short of spectacular. From his voice, to his moves, to his outfit; Everything was unbelievable!

The day started Early.. REALLY early. I went over to Shashi's and we were on our way. The trip was a lot longer than it was supposed to be but it didn't even feel that way. Time always flies when I'm with this girl. We spent about 2 hours in a mall. Doing what? Talking Shittt and DOING SHittt Lol. We met characters in that mall.. and we made some bold moves lol. But they all gave us a good laugh.

So we left the mall

I felt calm the entire day. It only really hit me about half an hour before he performed. I kept getting chills. The anticipation was... hm !!!!!! It just crept up on me . And when they positioned that piano in the middle of the stage, my chest was on fire. *Faints*

When he finally came out I was screaming my lungs out. My throat hurt after but it was worth it ! His performance was wonderful. And I realized just how good-looking he is without all that Hair.

During one of his performances he called someone from the audience to dance with him. That woman was so lucky that day. =( .  And he gave her a rose.. Such a gentleman *Melts*

So i posted a few pics and some Videos.!!!

This week was a Roller coaster. An unbelievably LONG and Winding Roller Coaster. .

Wednesday:

Failed attempt at winning a ticket to go see a John Legend performance. I won't even go further into this. >_> because I was SOOOO upset !

Thursday:

Went to see an uncle of mine =) Haven't him in Ages ! Afterwards my mom came to get to see an autopsy being done by our pathologist. When I got into the car, she told me that the radio station was giving away tickets !! We had to call and Sing ! So HELLO !! She gave me the car directory and Flip FLip Flip! FOUnd it !
Call *busy*
Call *busy*
Call *rings*
Damn it ! The Girl won ! =( .
"Does this mean I hang up? =(" I didnt want to.. so i stayed on the line. and WHAAATT? =D *Pick Up*! i was Shaking ! My voice was shaking. Everything! They asked for my name and where I was from and all that Jive. And then I sang. It's so funny how the moment you need to remember lyrics you Can't ! I tried my best anyway. I just wish I had access to the internet at that moment! Grr. Anyways I won =) ! And I get to go see JL with one of my Besstiiiiieeeesssss <3 . Yah . We got a Date =)

Friday:

* My hair got Done. and my hair got CHopped OFF ! =( . I didn't cry.. and I'm proud of myself for that.. But it still didn't turn out the way I wanted too.. The hair cut lacks character.. and she messed up my bangs a bit.. bleh. They're too even. Doesn't look like a decent side bang anymore.. but w/e.. I'm waiting for it all to grow back =)

* I saw a LOT of my Friends =D . Which absolutely made my dayyyyy

* At the end of the night I hopped on a bus to go see a friend.. Got to the house and The WORST thing that cud've have happened to me at that moment DID. :| . I searched through my bag for my iPod Touch and . ='( My baby was Gone. ='( !!!! Tracked down the driver but it wasn't there.. some idiot had taken it already. wow. I hate people like that... I hope he NEVER gets to use it because it has a Password on there! Bastard. =( . No more Tweeting on the go.. No more Fb.. no Skype.. no Msn.. no Angry Birds. no more Free texting to all my friends =( . Nothing. sigh*
The thing even had my name on it =( . ..


So that was the ending to my day...

And my week.

That last bit overshadowed all the things that made me happy over the past few days.. Just when I was starting to look on the brighter side of things... This happens to me.. =(

Slowly.. I'm falling into a depression..

Some thing seems to go wrong with every passing moment

Frankly, I don't want to deal with any of them..

But I have to..

Technology is against me, I nearly lost ALL my music. Thanks to a friend of mine I managed to recover them but I'm trying to get things back to exactly the way it was and it's taking so much effort.. I've been at it for over a day now and I'm not near the end yet..

My weight has become too much. Seriously. I have to work my butt off. AGaIn.
Why THe HEck Do ppl Find it NEcessary that the FIRST thing they say when they see me is that I've gained weight???

 Back the HELL OFF !! OBVIOUSLY i KNOw ThAT. It's My FREAKING BODY ! I DON'T NeEd YOU to POINT IT OUT TO ME.

 saodjf;lasdfjkf;asljkfl;asjkf !!

I won't even waste my time CURSING them OUT Here.

UGH ! UPsetting !.!

sigh*

Now that I'm home, I'm realizing how damaging the weather in Halifax was to my Hair.. What was once long and thick has now become thin and rapidly directed its way into a ridiculous deplorable state..

Just one day ago, a friend walked out of my life.. and it really hit me Hard.. I'm literally sulking over it..

And My Relationship? sigh*. Regardless of the fact that we're a 5 minute drive away from each other.. our connection.. Feels..  nearly non-existent.

I spent the last two day just lying in my room because I don't feel like doing anything else.. I don't want to see anyone.. I definitely don't want anyone to see me..

Unless I'm able to hide EveRyThing.. and there's a lot to hide..

I'm not happy.. And things are just going to get worse.. before even a slight ray of sunshine makes it way in..

Readers!! I am BAck HOME ! =D !!

Finally I'm out of that WrEtched Place! .. Alright.. Truth be told, it isn't that bad... Halifax is a nice place.. It's quiet, and there's a tree in every direction. i Love Nature <3 . Not too much of it though lol. It's somewhat of a fake city.. Like they've dumped some urban buildings into a rural area.. Which I like. You get a good bit of both worlds. Definitely not the best. The thing that ruins the city the most is the weather!! It's cold for 3/4 of the year! How ridiculous is THat??! sigh*. But as happy as I was to be leaving that place, I was upset that I had to leave so many people behind..


My journey was really different this time.. Guess I ended my freshman year the same way I started it - on a taxi, this time from SMU to the airport. It was smooth sailing from then. Landed in JFK on time and made my way to the house. The next day I took an 8 hour bus ride to Pittsburgh.. one of the W[o]rst experiences of my LIFE !






Everything bad that could have gone wrong, did. I got to the station, and one of the workers told me that I needed my ticket printed. So off I went in the direction he sent me. Stood on a line for quite some time. The worker there was so rude!! 20 minutes later when she finally made herself available to everyone, she tells me that I'm at the wrong place. So i had to walk up more floors and make my way to the other end of the station. Another line. Get to the front and.. guess what? Wrong place again ! So I head over to a third place. Line? DUH ! Meanwhile my time is running out ! Because the bus is going to leave SOON ! Get to the front and then.. sigh* worst news of ALL. . I'm at the wrong station.. and my bus had left 20 minutes before.. =( . Apparently I'd been looking at my return time. So.. Panic? Disappointment? Frustration? Sadness? Yes.. Everything. I just found somewhere and Cried.. I couldn't help it. . I ended up buying another ticket.. which cost 3 times as much as it did from the other company. Goodbye new pair of shoes.. A few minutes after the bus left, I really examined my ticket... I was scheduled to get to Pittsburgh in 13 hours :| . The woman who sold it to me didn't even find it necessary to point that out ! Or the fact that I needed to switch buses at the next stop.! So ridiculous ! Things kept on getting worse, and better, and worse; From catching the earlier bus at the next station, to the vending machine stealing my cash, and the second bus having No wifi =( . But I made it in one piece.. One drained and disappointed piece.

Things got better the following days. Spent it with my brother. He took me around.. and we did some shopping. I enjoyed Pittsburgh more than NY. It's almost like Halifax but with American stores and American prices!! =D ! How HAPPYYY was I ! Until my money ran out lol. =(. Sad. . I stayed there for a week and then headed back on a bus to NY.

I explored Brooklyn on my own the following day; and by Brooklyn I mean a few blocks. Had to lock up the house myself and all =). Yes, that's an achievement! Got myself some food, and did some window shopping. I made my way to Staples! *shivers* . iLove Stationery. Absolutely love it. If I could've bought more I would.

The people of Brooklyn are.. different.. The way the look, the way the dress.. You could just tell that I didn't belong there.. Even though I just had on a vest, jeans and flip flops that day. People kept staring.. discomfort? yes. A lot of it.

I had to wake up at 5 the next morning to head over to the airport. My carry on was unbelievably heavy due to the HUGE text books in there. I didn't want to risk my luggage being overweight and being charged and extra $50 !!! ugh. So I packed them in there. I had the wrong gate on my ticket.. Don't ask me why ! So I would have probably missed my flight had I not noticed that screen with the departure gates and destinations. I would've ended up in Puerto Rico. Thank you Check in GUY ! >_> . Nearly sent me to the WRONG country.

Even finding food in that terminal was a hassle. There were more restaurant type food outlets in there than the usual Stop and Go. Spent about 20 minutes walking around trying to find something to eat. Meanwhile I was Starving ! and the weight of my backpack was unbearable. My back felt like it was on fire. When I finally got something and made my way to the RIGHT gate, I just sat there. And for a moment I didn't Move. .

I didn't get a window seat.. I was 'middled'. But luckily the passengers on either side of me were really nice. Slept a lot of the way, and played Angry Birds. The guy to my right introduced me to something called 'Popcorners'. It's pop corn in the shape of chips! And they taste Exactly like popcorn ! I'd love to make the switch ! No more kernels stuck in my teeth -_-''. Such an annoying feeling. So if you guys ever see it in a store somewhere, pick it up! It's worth it.




It was raining like crazy the first two days.. but the sun decided to come out today. I'm happy about that. Spend the day with my friends at the beach. Just like old times. Some were still missing though.. And I can't wait until I get to see them again.. <3.  Till then, they'll always be there in Spirit. =)

This Summer won't be all fun and games though. I start work soon. Grr! All a part of growing up I suppose..

To a Neü Summer!

and III AMmMmm DONE !!

As of noon today, or whatever time I left the exam room, my first year at university is OVER!

HapPy? Yes

Sad? That too..

=( Freshman year has gone by so quickly it's unbelievable.. I still remember when I first walked through the doors of the Gorsebrook entrance... =( . Now I'll be leaving through those same doors.. All the 'Hi's' have now turned to 'Goodbyes' as all my friends depart and head for home.. Some of whom are never going to come back... But that's life i suppose.. I'll miss all of them.

I've made some amazing friendships, and I see certain individuals remaining in my life.. and being a big part of it too =) . Saying goodbye to them was one of the hardest things... A part of me wants the summer to go bye super quick JUST so i can see them again lol. Crazy? YEAH ! Summer's going to be AmaZing and it better last long !! Lol. 

I can finally say goodbye to Calculus ! I'll miss it.. =( Seriously.. it's not as bad as you think. Just need practice.. which I didnt do much of. Bleh. GO Figure. And Ecology. *sigh* No more memorizing a million Phyla and Classes and Orders and SubPhyla and all the LonG and ComPLicated NamEs!

Hali gave me more DOWNS than UPS and i am PISSED at it ! Particularly my HaIR =(. I'll be saying bye to a lot of it soon.. Already said bye to so much of it in Halifax... Involuntarily... The weather up there is ridiculous.. But I've learnt from my mistakes.. and next year will be better.. 

I have 4 labs a week ahead of me. As well as RA duty and the possibility of being a Student Assistant during Chem Labs. I got my hands Full next year. REALLY full. Let's see how I prioritize.. Let's see if I make it out alive lol.

My plans for the Summer? School, work, Exercise, and of course.. 

FUN.!

Got my BIkiniii Readyy !. Won't be worn until the body comes along though. And until I find myself on a beach back home.! Can't Wait !

To Summer !